Her foot was crippled. I guess maybe that is what you mean.
To me -- she and I had a special bond that words can't even explain. We could read each other's minds. I knew what she was thinking - got her thoughts -- and could tell her things and she would understand. I know it sounds nuts, but it is true.
In the end, when she was so, so, sick I asked her to fight if she could. She lived another 3 days!! I was by her side the whole time and barely slept. If I slept it was next to her. Finally, I told her if it was too hard and hurt too much, to go ahead and go. That I loved her and wanted her not to hurt and suffer. 3 hours later she died in my arms.
I know there will never be another bird to replace Mac and to lose her was like losing a child. Next week is the one year anniversary of her death and I can't even imagine what that day is going to be like. May 5th.
When the vet necropsied her we found out that she wasn't 12 years old, but 40 - 60 years old!! I don't doubt that she might have even been a wild caught bird and got her foot broken when captured or in quarantine. She really had a hard life --- only a 3rd of her liver was normal and she had arteriosclerosis!! The woman who had her before me had to give her up because she had COPD and her doctor said she couldn't have her anymore (dander!!). Does that mean she was in a house with smokers for years?????
Poor baby she really had a hard life -- no toys, no enrichment, no stimulation. I take comfort in the knowledge that the last 9 months of her life were probably some of the happiest.
Mac was special because she was Mac. |